UPDATE: I was sitting on the floor of my bedroom this evening, trying to choose a song to sing on Sunday, when the phone call from my beloved doctor came. The biopsies she took two days ago revealed another active cancer site… She couldn’t give me a plan of attack, not until further discussion and tests, but my hopes for a quick return to Europe and radiation there are put on hold, most probably replaced by the need for a mastectomy and chemotherapy. As you can imagine, this was all very unexpected and jarring.
Not too surprisingly, the song I was practicing when the call came was Steven Curtis Chapman’s “The Treasure of Jesus.” It says, in part,
Let me be found pursuing this prize
The One that alone satisfies
The Treasure of Jesus.”
God knew I’d need those words in my mind when I received the news. The Treasure of Jesus must remain my goal and my reward. Now comes another wait. I’ll head back to the hospital a week from Monday for more tests and to meet the “tumor board” again, and we’ll determine then exactly what needs to happen next. I’ll still be speaking at church on Sunday, as much to remind myself of the Truths I know as to make of this journey something that can be beneficial to others. I will not let this pain–this disheartening news–this challenge–this opportunity for growth–be wasted.
Please continue to pray.
(PS: Today is my father’s birthday…)